im back in dc. my time in lancaster was short considering i was in philly for most of it, but the time i did spend there was way too long. & i cant see myself going back anytime soon, im really hoping my next visit will be next xmas.
im a mess rite now
-i cant move into my new room yet so im sleeping on my mattress in the living room because its the only place i dont wake up with a mind numbing sinus headache
-my heart is 130 miles away & its killing me
-my one friend that is here works 9-5 everyday & the rest of my friends are scattered across the northeast.
-i got a job but i cant start til later in the week which is when ill probably be going to virginia beach
-the plans for my cousins memorial/funeral are still up in the air & its finally setting in that hes gone
-ive got more shit going on in my head than i ever thought possible
while i am a mess right now im better than i would be in lancaster. i never felt comfortable there, constantly on a balance beam between just getting by & having a total meltdown. & while dc is not where ill end up living the rest of my life its where im at rite now. it definately does not feel like home but im more comfortable in a few months here than i ever was in 18 years in lancaster.
the new xiu xiu is up & its fucking incredible
top 5 albums to listen to when you feel like its all crashing down.
1) give up the ghost "were down til were undrground"
2) autopilot off "make a sound"
3) thursday "war all the time"
4) this is hell "sundowning"
5) xo skeletons "bored by heaven"
if anyones lonely and looking for a road trip come visit
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