every now and then you refind that album that was such a key part of your life. a few days ago i had itunes on shuffle & basket case came & i just kind of stopped & sat there and when it was done i played dookie on repeat for close to four hours. all i could think about was lauryn and i christmas shopping in 10th grade. & all these other memories came flooding back. today i was riding and the science of selling yourself short came on, so i listened to less than jakes "anthem" for like two hours. & all i could remember was how shitty freshman year was & how that album made it all ok. & i wonder what that album is for my life right now. my first month of school was overcome by the get up kids but i wonder if it will have the same effect in 5, 10, or 20 years.
im so confused by life right now. im indifferent and overly emotional.
i found a quote today
theres a point in your life where you get tired of chasing everyone & trying to change everything, but its not giving up... its realizing that you dont need certain people, the bullshit, & the drama they bring
& as mean as that sounds its my life right now. since leaving lancaster i've stopped talking to a lot of people & i dont feel bad about that at all. i never really liked them while i was there & now i realize i dont need them. there are a few people who i have lost in recent weeks that effect & shake my every waking moment. & they may never know that & i may never, in words, be able to describe to them how much they truly do mean to me, but thats life, i guess.
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