nothing ever changes

im in va beach

lancaster was lancaster
it never seems to be an easy time
while im there
its always the highest of highs
& the lowest of lows
i saw sophie for the first time
in almost 2 years
& we sat in a diner for close to 5 hours
& just talked
i saw tara
& she always makes me happy
that girl can cure cancer
with a smile
heard justins bands new album
& its of course
amazing

im starting to realize
how fucked in the head i am
im looking for people to fix my problems
& i fixate on people
like tattoo girl
& the girl i had one date with
& girls i kissed a year or more ago
& i constantly wonder
how they feel about me
but the people who
ive fucked up with
& left
i just write off
fuck self relfection

i should be all over the northeast
in the coming week
or all over the south
depending how things pan out

im ready for it to be the 26th

chris wollard & the ship theives on repeat