Tuesday, September 01, 2009

you deserve much better than me

one of my favorite artists
put out a new book
& its amazing
& like usual
perfect timing

the new brand new
can only be described as stunning

im rereading klostermans
killing yourself to live

i fucked up the job i had
& am most likely going to have to find a new one
i knew it was too good to be true

im mentally fucked right now
chelseas coming to ny
this weekend
& i dont know if im ready for it

i saw lauryn yesterday
& it was fine & normal
& completely fucked
& weird
all at the same time

im biting my nails again
drinking too many black russians
& listening to
to much gaslight anthem

new york is a fucking cesspool

i cant fall asleep before 5 am
& i cant sleep past 8am

i dont miss dc
i miss the places ive never seen
states ive yet to cross
couches ive yet to sleep on

i have $19 to my name

i need away from
myself for a few days

2 comments:

AP said...

Killing Yourself To Live is one of my favorite books, ever. Hope you like it just the same.

Emilia said...

i don't even know what a black russian is. i hope i see you soon.