all my roommates & my father are yelling at me
im pissed off
grab my shit
& leave
im walking thru the streets pissed & angry
i pass ll cool j
& he makes a joke about his "fame"
& asks if i have a minute
i tell him honestly i dont
when a friend of his comes out of nowhere
i start walking away quickly
& apologize
his friend grabs my shoulder
spins me around
& puts a gun to my forehead

i wake up in the fetal position
with the blankets wrapped so tight
around my right leg that it has no feeling
my pillows are strewn across the room
my bodies itchy & my head kills
i can barely breathe

i really miss having someone to hold at nite