banners & bandages

alcohol & sex are officially done
for the near future
both hinder my running schedule

hot water music "caution" on repeat

the girl im currently crushing on
is 29
which means theres zero chance
for yours truly

i have prints for sale
im trying to make rent for the summer
if you are remotely interested
please let me know

i came home tonite
& as my former boss used to say
i ran out my rage

im sick of people
i need away from everyone for a while

im shooting a family friends wedding
in a couple weeks
kind of a mind fuck

im ready for school to be done
but my summers kind of
up in the air at this point

i realized today
that there is a girl in my life
who when i find out shes engaged
im pretty sure ill be having a mental breakdown

sorry for the ramble

ruining graceland

after an amazing week in the south
im back in dc
im not happy about it
but you cant always be happy

its amazing what a run can do for me mentally
i realized lately ive let myself go
ive never been in the best shape
but ive always been better than this
im going to start running again
no matter the time constraints
& im going to start eating mostly vegan again
no more alcohol or soda or any of that bullshit
how can i expect any one to like me
if i dont like myself

we all lose

made a drunk fool of myself
in front of a girl this past weekend
im getting pretty good at this

i have a project due in 12 days
& i have zero idea what im doing
the ideas i did have
have fallen apart

but i dont care
im louisiana bound by noon tomorrow
everything else can go to hell

once again
i need out
i need new
i need away

im alright for now but i havent been

im trying to create my own family
ive never liked mine
& i have no memories before 8th grade
so now its time for me to decide
what is & is not my history

hot water musics caution
& vodka sprites
are all thats making the days pass

i want to move somewhere knew
where i know no one
& nothing

i saw beautiful losers today
& it reinforced preexisting mindsets

new york was weird & awkward
my friends & family are leaving me uneasy
& art school is still no place
for someone with low self esteem