i ran til i puked last night

i want fall to be here

i want a beach

& a boat

& a campfire

& a bottle of rum

& a set of fresh lips

& hips

& repeat records

a shitshow in a primetime slot

i had some big write up planned for this shit

but the days are just to fucking hard as of late

i crossed the country in 4 weeks

& flew back in 4 hours

i cant sit still anymore

im restless

mentally & physically

days of coffee & gaslight anthem

nights of rum & planes mistaken for stars

i need outta here

postcards from the road

From June 24th thru July 23rd, I will be on a cross country tour with the band We Were Skeletons.
My work consists mostly of travel documentation and short prose/ poetry.
I will be offering 4x6 color prints, sent as a postcard, with an original poem on the back mailed to your home from the road.
Each postcard will cost five dollars.
I have set up a paypal account to make it easy, just search the email address thefaclesskid@gmail.com.
Also please include the address you would like your postcard mailed to.

theres always war to wage

big blue house is done
sarah moved out today
& chris & sara have been gone
for a few days
but will be back the end of the week

im supposed to be in savannah right now
but things fall apart sometimes
im pretty sure im never meant
to see harmony again

i had enlightenment today
that humans have the amazing ability
to change
im not even close to the person i was
when i started college

its an amazing feeling
when youre able to realize
its time to leave
& to do so

trying to find a way out of dc
in the next couple days
i want florida air
coating my lungs
more than i can express

weakerthans "left & leaving"

i use to think it was me

started summer off
with a short trip to va beach
& a small brown bike show
tomorrow im seeing a silver mt zion
& sunday crime in stereo
im going to florida on tuesday
summer looks like its shaping up pretty well

im going to be working a lot
so i will hopefully have food money
while on tour

im ready to be living out of a bag

trying to work out thesis shit
just keep shooting

im getting sick
my nose is stuffy
& my throat is extremely soar

schools done this time next week
getting there will be hard
just trying to survive

hopefully going to florida for last week of may
then moving into a house for a few weeks in july
working 9-5
then tour for 4ish weeks
summer camp ra
then move into housing for senior year
its going to fly by
but for now i need to get to next wednesday

i saw converge & thursday the other night
realized converge is not meant to be seen on a stage
& thursday made me realize im not 16 anymore

yell fire during a quiet scene

when youre most comfortable
is when you should abandon everything
start fresh
& do something
youve never done before

5 projects in 10 days
& im starting over on 3 of them
heres to taking chances

last goodbyes

in 24 hours
i have
seen the girl
i liked all thru high school
had lunch with the girl
i lost my virginity too
photographed the wedding rehearsal
of a family friend
not kissed (again) a girl
ive liked for about 3 years
given up on a girl
thats seems perfect
(but they all do at some point)
gotten in a fight with a roommate
related to a movie character
who likes to smash things
& have hot water music on repeat
(hwm is about all
thats keeping me sane these days)

im looking for something
do you know where i could find it?

simple hearts

weekend at the beach
left me happy
but sunburnt
i shot a lot
my finals are all
coming together nicely

im shooting a family friends wedding
this weekend
& hopefully seeing some people
i dearly miss

im officially moving out of big blue house
on may 31st
its going to be weird
to see it end
but it means
i can go on summer tour
with justins band

the braid reissues are amazing

& im trying to get my hands
on the new get up kids as well

im trying not to deal with girls right now
ive got bigger battles to fight
ive been running
which has been tremendous
for my mental health

i just keep searching
for what
i dont know

how bad could this hurt

lifes been a shit show lately
its allergy season
& like usual im not doing to well
i fucking hate sneezing

im trying to get plans together
for thesis

trying to find someone
to live in my house this summer

lots of trying & failing these days
ive been taking too many hours at work
not enough time for school work

i need to be in a car heading south
asap

banners & bandages

alcohol & sex are officially done
for the near future
both hinder my running schedule

hot water music "caution" on repeat

the girl im currently crushing on
is 29
which means theres zero chance
for yours truly

i have prints for sale
im trying to make rent for the summer
if you are remotely interested
please let me know

i came home tonite
& as my former boss used to say
i ran out my rage

im sick of people
i need away from everyone for a while

im shooting a family friends wedding
in a couple weeks
kind of a mind fuck

im ready for school to be done
but my summers kind of
up in the air at this point

i realized today
that there is a girl in my life
who when i find out shes engaged
im pretty sure ill be having a mental breakdown

sorry for the ramble

ruining graceland

after an amazing week in the south
im back in dc
im not happy about it
but you cant always be happy

its amazing what a run can do for me mentally
i realized lately ive let myself go
ive never been in the best shape
but ive always been better than this
im going to start running again
no matter the time constraints
& im going to start eating mostly vegan again
no more alcohol or soda or any of that bullshit
how can i expect any one to like me
if i dont like myself

we all lose

made a drunk fool of myself
in front of a girl this past weekend
im getting pretty good at this

i have a project due in 12 days
& i have zero idea what im doing
the ideas i did have
have fallen apart

but i dont care
im louisiana bound by noon tomorrow
everything else can go to hell

once again
i need out
i need new
i need away

im alright for now but i havent been

im trying to create my own family
ive never liked mine
& i have no memories before 8th grade
so now its time for me to decide
what is & is not my history

hot water musics caution
& vodka sprites
are all thats making the days pass

i want to move somewhere knew
where i know no one
& nothing

i saw beautiful losers today
& it reinforced preexisting mindsets

new york was weird & awkward
my friends & family are leaving me uneasy
& art school is still no place
for someone with low self esteem

i always kinda sorta wished i was someone else

swamped in work
projects & life
best friends breaking up
people being the same people

give up the ghost on repeat

no place like a strangers couch

boston this weekend
new york next weekend

trying to plan spring break
& summer
where im going
& with who

works been slow
lots of fucked up film
but im making moves
toward successful work

harmony should be visiting soon

im ready for spring

im considering not renting a place
next year
& just sleeping on friends couches
& floors

a big fat fucking bone to pick

its been snowing like crazy
its been nothing short of amazing
3 seasons of rescue me
in 3 days
lots of records on repeat

drove to delaware yesterday
nice to highway drive again

harmony may be coming to dc this weekend

short stories about fucking up
are not good for me to be writing
they come out too easy
& make me think too much

i want tattoos

none of my photo projects have been working out
last 5 or 6 rolls film have all been shit
looks like im going to be working with video

the past will never be again
so stop fixating on it

double your drinks
kiss the ones you want
lifes too short
to give a fuck

im a little rusty

my bodies kinda fucked right now
my nose is swollen
my eyes black
knuckles & knees
scraped & scabbed

ive been trying to figure out
states
words
kisses
photos
pain

fuck it
i guess we lost

sending postcards for former selves

adventureland
& road to perdition
two totally different movies
but both are amazing

photos didnt work out yesterday
bloody noses
& knees
black eyes
drunk words
kind of a shit show all around

ive said it before
you win some
you lose some

i want to make a movie

im trying to watch every hitchcock movie

florida sure knows how to make them

like a cat

read more
write more
talk less
think of new ideas
try new things
quit vices
dont listen to anyone
always kiss the prettiest girl

this is proof

classes have been good
already working on some projects
that i feel could turn out really well
lots involving blood
& new photo techniques
& self deprecation
thats kind of what i do

i went to philly yesterday
& lancaster
got the rest of my stuff
philly again next weekend?
new york maybe
possibly boston
i like keeping my options open

i saw bryan fallon of gaslight anthem
play an acoustic show last week
& of course it was amazing

2 new books in the works
based around the fact that
all i can think about these days
are 3 girls from florida
who are spread out all over the east coast
but all somehow are taking up space in my mind

stay free

classes start today
it feels weird
since i havent had real class
since last may
im excited to start working again
& trying to produce work to meet deadlines

i found where i want to work after school

im going to new york next weekend
to see the #12s last show
& hopefully get in
some melissa & harmony time

control the rage

i put off finding a job
in efforts of enjoying myself
im ready for classes to start

i got drunker last nite than i have in a while
& it just reiterated the fact that i shouldnt drink
fall out boy "take this to your grave"
has become my new running soundtrack
& against me! "as the eternal cowboy"
has become my get thru the day soundtrack
i know im about 5 years late on both
you win some
you lose some

ive been thinking to much lately
girls in ny
that i never had the chance to fuck up with
girls in florida
that make me question location
& girls in dc
that make me scream along
ive done somethings that im not to proud of
when gaslight anthem
pours from the stereo

its been a long time coming

turn of the key

i got back yesterday
tour was amazing
& weve all already talked
about summer tour
amazing music
all nite drives
& best friends
whats not to love
photos are up
while it was amazing
its made being back in dc even harder
as someone once told me
you are constantly in search of something
other than where you are
the words have never been truer
in ny i wanted to be here
now im here
& i want to be everywhere else

i didnt get to see tara
gainesville made me realize
how much i miss having harmony around
florida reminded me of beezer
gaslight anthem wont let me forget
how much of a hopeless romantic i am
& punk rock still makes the heart & soul
feel better
than any drink or therapist ever will

new years off to a good start

im trying to write a couple short stories
im going to start playing bass again
& ive learned not to cut your own hair
without a 2nd mirror
or at the very least a 2nd drink
& also try not to hang out with people
youve slept with
who still miss you

im living out of a box til the 30th
sleeping on the couch
that will be about 6 weeks
of living out of a bag/box
while awesome
its also not at the same time

mass amounts of running have begun
as well as ceasing consumption of alcohol

ps lean on sheena by the bouncing souls
will beat any other song youve ever listened to
in an awesome contest