headached heads

i was talking with a friend the other nite
& she asked me what my ultimate career was
& i said i just wanted to wander
& i never wanted a true career
& she told me all sorts of noble careers
she is hoping to obtain
& then she said she wishes
she had the guts to not have plans or goals like me
& i said its its only cuz
i dont have the guts
to put in the commitment it takes to have a career

chris walker moved out of the big blue house
so im living in his room for the summer
a bed my desk & a stereo
thats all i need

people complain of shit
being confusing & complicated
but its only that way because you make it
& you thrive off of it
just keep life simple
go where you wanna go
do what you want
& kiss who you please
lifes to short for petty bullshit

big stuff on the horizon
a musical/ poetry/ photography release
between a fellow artist & myself
a book of collected works thus far in my life
& a hopefully a release or two from a couple bands

give up the ghost on repeat

pictures apoligies

this bed has simply become
a milemarker
keeping tabs on the number of times
i fail
a record of the people im not with
& the places im not seeing

wastin time

theres not much better
than 3 days at the beach with your dad
then driving home
blasting green day & blink 182
with a cute girl waiting for your arrival

the world at our fingertips

ive spent so many nites
on couches & floors
i cant even sleep in my own bed anymore
it just isnt comfortable
i want to be moving & traveling
i dont want to be in this house
around these people
in this city
i want a new life
i just dont have the guts to go for it

home is where you make it

im back in dc
& while im not excited to be back
i am excited for all i hope to accomplish
this summer
this trip was extremely inspiring

jackson mississippi
was the highlight of the trip
we were only going to spend a nite
but we ended up sticking around for another nite
everyone there was amazing
& the city was beautiful as well
& jumping off dune barriers
into a river the color of shit
with mississippi teens
will forever be a highlight in my life

we survived
serial killer/ scary movie like events
in savannah
& drank with bike punks in richmond
but now were back to the district
& daily lives

its gonna be the summer of doing amazing shit

i keep goin round

sara wasnt feeling well 

so i drove from maryland 

to nashville

11 hours is a long time to drive

we almost died in west virginia

sandwiched between an 18 wheeler & a moving truck

some how i got us out alive

nashvilles really gorgeous 

we went downtown yesterday 

& walked around

leaving for jackson mississippi 

in about half an hour

were staying with a photography

who lives in a group house

theres nothing more in life

i love more than traveling

it just clears my head

& leaves me relaxed 

& without a care in the world

the keystone of a crumbling life

being back in lancaster is weird
ive never brought anyone from school
back with me for an extended period of time
showing sara around was fun
& it brought back a lot of good memories
& while it was an amazing nite
a departure time of 10 am tomorrow
sounds perfect

tyler justin gustav & bethany
are always good times
& having sara along only made it all better

& i swear to god
taras hugs can cure cancer
ive gotten more from hugging her
than i have from sleeping with some girls

nashville tomorrow
& a horseshoe of the south to follow

taking back sunday
& less than jake
on repeat

before i lose everything

all these cars passin by
& none of them seem to go my way

in nyc & I've never felt more lonely

717 today

the bible belt tomorrow

a gift i dont deserve

have heart just announced
they are breaking up
after their current world tour
that means ill be
in philly 8/14
& nyc 9/12

i found these guys
in mrr in like 10th grade
immediately got their 7 inch
& convinced my dad to hook up
his record player
so i could listen to it

i like a ton of the bands i do today
because of these guys

one circle ends
& another begins

the south
is screaming my name
thru treadless tires
& hot pavement

scabby knees

spent the nite
talking with someone
ive only met once before
& it was good to have conversation
pick up
where it left off months ago

a bike trip got canceled
because of logistics
& a car trip has now taken its place

im officially done with
my sophomore year of college
weird

i should be on trial

& sometimes you just get drunk alone
on a monday nite
& watch a canadian romantic comedy
about fucked up relationships
called
young people fucking

im done til wednesday at 6 when i have a crit
& after that crit
im officially done with my sophomore year
i never thought id make it this far

lawrence arms have announced a show
in chicago towards the end of october
as of now im totally going

all i want this summer
is a punk girl
who doesnt smell too much
to go to shows with
watch movies with
make vegan dinner with
& make out with
is that really so much to ask?

antisocial? middlename

sometimes life is weird
tonite was my last nite at bertuccis
a place ive worked for a year & a half
i closed
cashed out
clocked out
& biked home
the same i would any other nite
nothing different
& no one knowing i wouldnt be returning

i wanted to ask out a coworker
but we all know how that story ends

2 weeks from now i hope to be far south

i love working in restaurants
but a 4 month break will be nice

my mind & daily life
have been fucked up lately
but a ghost from the past

bought dookie on vinyl today
so the saga continues
i swear im going to be buried
with a copy of that thing

saving myself for something beautifully true

another nite of high hopes
& low self esteems

crit today went well
nothing said that i wasnt expecting

i need summer
& to see about a dozen other state
& ill be ok

what the fuck do i continuously do wrong?

its not the exs that fuck your life & head up
its the ones you never even had

fingers sticks of dynamite

lifes a shit show rite now
my class hangs our first show monday
were all freaking out a little
when im done ill post the video on youtube
heres the other video i made for the last project
trying to figure out summer
& various trips
as well as trying trying
to finish finals
is not good for ones mental health

currently playing
none more black "this is satire"
lawrence arms "cocktails & dreams"
less than jake "anthem"