if we never meet again it would be to soon

i wanna create something worth while
change some high school fuckers life

i fucking hate art school

cuttin teeth cuttin ties

another project done
& still the only thing i can think
is that i dont want to be here
with every project i think it will change
but it never does

ive stopped talking to a lot of people
& i am completely satisfied
with knowing i will never
see or speak to those people again

maybe all this is because
ive been reading bukowski lately

& i whole heartedly believe
that thursdays new album
has changed the face of the planet

nuns with vices

so if all works out
i will be in portland oregon
from august til december of this year
it will give me a chance
to get away from
everyone & everything

thursday "common existence" is still in heavy rotation

the knife

what do you do
when you finally realize
youre the type of person
that you hate

feed the fire

im fine with cutting people out of my life
but theres still those few people
that i wake up
thinking about every morning
it hurts the same everyday

to those i hurt
im sorry

deftones "white pony"

& the people sang

ive been writing more
i read at transformer gallery last nite
& it went over well
hopefully i can read more often
in the not to distant future

my ipod had a seizure yesterday morning
im freaking out a little with out it

the new thursday album is amazing

life rite now is very similar
to the good lifes "album of the year"
the only thing is
the song doesnt have a happy ending
& the part of that that worries me
is the fact that i cant decide
if thats good or bad

ugly valentine

getting your hopes up
is worse than sleeping alone

im a wreck im a mess

a guy i work with
& i talked for a while
after work tonite
& i realized ive got alot
of fucked up social problems

my dads coming thursday
& bethany friday
should be an interesting week

i cant open up

looks like i lost the eagerness first

sometimes its ok to hate yourself

bayside & black flag on heavy rotation

im looking to go camping over spring break
possibly north carolina
florida
or northern pa

a sign there may actually be a god?

blink 182 is back together
& planning a summer album

finish it

ive been missing va beach & my dad a lot lately

since monday at 6
life has been highs & lows
with no middle ground whatsoever

thursdays new album is on constant repeat
& it destroys anything
youve ever heard or felt before

i finally found someone who is as eager as i am
but now im nervous
because i know how quickly
that eagerness can fade

every dog has its day

new loves
new fights
fresh drinks
fresh lips

when you go to bed before 4 am
you just arent having fun