im over feeling sorry so just deal with it

it sounds cliche but ive changed alot since coming to college. ive lost friends but gained new ones. some have told me ive compromised my morals, but isnt that for me to decide. my morals are just that, mine. ive been carrying a journal with me and writing a lot and this will be a site to vent anything and everything i have on my mind. my new book "a boy in transit" is done it documents my time in lancaster, myrtle beach, london, dc, & philly. if you want one let me know and we can negotiate a price, $1-3. the following is a small preview.

we sat on cold concrete curbs
fresh cigarettes keeping our finger tips warm
hoods up
soaked by the rain
no words
just the sight of our breath
you shared secrets
i shed tears
we walked home
as the skies screamed
for a sense of hope
every kiss tasted
better than the last
we fell asleep on the couch
to the sound of children dying
our bodies wet & cold
i traced constellations
between freckles & goose bumps
we got so close
but we never even touched

ill wear my insides out
and let you tear apart my guts
in search of the answers i never gave
ill hold my heart
with calloused hands
to keep it from dripping to the floor
please don’t look me in the eyes
you may see how i really feel
i can barely handle talking tonite
let alone confessing i love yous

one sided conversations
thru stitched up mouths
my hearts having trouble
findings it way
120 miles back to you
you burned up the map
turned your back
& looked for better lips to kiss

i went back thru some old photos and found some i liked








































currently playing: alkaline trio "remains"
the song "hating every minute" couldnt better describe me. alkaline trio seems to have a song for every situation im in and every emotion ive ever felt